Being Real

How many people actually take the time to be real with God? A lot of times we sit back and pray things like.."please forgive me of my sins. amen." We go through the motions..instead of seeking the relationship factor. Lately, I have been learning that I need to be real..instead of just praying the non-originial prayers.. "Lord..thank You for this day. Please forgive me for my sins. Watch over me. Bless the hands that have prepared this meal.." and so on. That's all good..and great...and needed.. BUT..when are we real? Just telling Him how we feel. He knows but He wants to hear it from us. He is our lover. Our best friend. Our confidant..but so many times ..we push Him off as just this royal guy up in the sky..who we are supposed to pray to..everyday..thanking Him..and seeking forgiveness. Whose laws were supposed to fall..to be a "Good Christian" We need to go to Church-stand up when told to..sit down when told to.. open the Bibles when told to..and so on. We think thats real-but it's not.. most of the time..it's just the motions of being a Christian. I've been challenged lately to really seek God..in everything in my life. To seek Him in the messes..and the joyous times..instead of just going through the motions. I'm not perfect- I know when to do what I'm supposed to do..and pray when I'm supposed to as well. But, I want MORE than that. I want a real realationship with my Father. Not hiding anything. Because He knows all and He loves me no matter what I've done! I still have a long way to go. But I wanted to share with you.......my beginnings of being real with God. My heart..a prayer out of my own journal ..to maybe encourage you to be real with Him.About EVERYTHING!! He will reveal Himself more to you!

Good luck!!

Love,

*B*



















"The truth,God, has already been confessed many times before but I still feel I have not released it all. I failed You. Tremendously. I gave up and gave in to what the world had to offer instead of what You promised. It seemed okay at the time. Harmless. But then it ended up to be..harmful.. Drinking away my fears,tears, anxiety,depression. Running from You. I sent myself out of reality and into the pits of Hell. I never knew it would end up so badly. I did not see what was coming. I did not know who I was anymore. It was like I met an evil side of me, that I wished I would have never had the chance to meet. That Brittany did not care about anyone but herself.-and actually didnt even care about herself. I was running from what I needed to the items and people that I needed least. I was searching for love in the wrong places,seeking to please others instead of You, trying to slip away from the world.. one drink at a time... one pill at a time... one party at a time. The people surrounding me could care less about me. My dreams...my desires...my passions..my ambitions. We were drinking buddies. That's it. So quickly they came and so quickly they went..they left me out to dry. After the storm, and when my pain seeped through, they were gone. They wanted no part of it. They never cared. And I realize I didn't either. My world was a roller coaster of ups and downs-and the ups required alcohol. Lord, I needed You and You were right there--waiting outside the door of the party. Reaching out to me as I popped the pills. And crying for me when I gave into "him". You were there waiting. You never gave up on me. And because of Your love--I was healed. Forgiven. Still bruised...Still broken... but Your grace has made me whole. Your love has saved me.Thank You."