Capture The Sun

Capture The Sun
God's really been working on my heart lately. Today I broke down. It's so hard being in a place where you see everyone exceeding ahead and being used by the Lord-when your heart is THERE..your heart,your soul,and everything within you wants to seek God's will and be used by Him. Your willing. Your chasing the sun- but feel like your always a few steps behind-your not quite there--it fades before you can truly capture it. And the beauty you see turns to be just a memory in your mind-of something you long for with your whole heart..but can never capture it. I feel like thats been my life... for a long time now. I have the desire, the motivation to move ahead..to chase the sun..to capture the sun.. and soak in the beauty- and let God use my heart for His purposes...but...

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what? Lord?.. Are you there? And can you hear my crys? My heart is aching..and longing for You.
What am I doing wrong??


I want to be transformed Lord.. to who YOU want me to be. And Lord..I want to be used... I'm yours.

Lord, I want to capture the sun.........