My feelings

Just let me feel.. let me be brave and courageous.
Let me face my demons, the things holding me apart from myself.
Let me cry.. so I can look my problems in the face-and heal.
Don't try to stop me from feeling, because I need to breathe.
Because you cant see how much this is suffocating me.

** I realized today that I am NOT weak because I cry. I am NOT weak because I struggle. I am NOT weak because I hurt. I am NOT weak because I feel. I am STRONG for feeling. I am STRONG for crying. I am STRONG because I allow myself to hurt. I am STRONG because I struggle. I am brave and courageous. It takes someone STRONG to allow themselves to become WEAK..because that means they have to face their giants. Their demons. They are standing face to face and dealing with them. Instead of pushing them inside and covering them up so NO ONE can see.. and letting them slowly kill you from the inside out. So please, next time you tell me that I need to be 100% better and that I shouldn't have a problem with "him" , "that situation", or " it" .... keep it to yourself. Because I'm dealing with it and you have not stepped a foot inside my shoes to realize that it's NOT as easy as you would like to think. I see my faults-- I'm working on them. But please quit trying to look me in my eyes and tell me that I'm okay.That I shouldnt over-react. Until you take 2 years out of your life, and go through the pain,suffering,neglect, and abuse that I suffered-then you have no idea.. God's working on me. And He is doing marvelous things in my life. He IS transforming me. But just like anything, it takes time. It takes time to heal...and to be transformed... -just pray for me-love me-support me-encourage me..but please stop telling me that I should be healed already-that i should be okay- and please dont make excuses for the things that hurt me. Because there is none. **