He told me he was bad for me. That I was changing because of him. He warned me. Then I realized,almost all of "them" warned me. They said there was something innocent about me-no matter what I had done. Some knew their limits-and left before it had gotten to far. Others pushed and pushed and regretted what they had done later. Or did they? They warned me. But I was dumb to the fact. I did not heed the warning. I wanted to show them LOVE. I didnt want them to think I was too good for them. They needed me. And I thought I needed them. HA! You cant change someone. I had to learn that the hard way. I reached my hand down to lift them up and they pulled me down right with them. I couldnt be strong for them any longer because I couldnt be strong for myself. You can not save anyone who doesnt want to be saved. I did not have the strength... I never did. I was trying to save them on what little strenghth I had-and not God's. So..there unfolded my life.
My life of trying to save people.. trying to help people.. trying to love people..trying to show them compassion... and in the end-I was one of them. A lost girl-needing to be saved-needing help-needing love-and needing compassion. How did I get there?! When once I knew who I was and where I was headed. Life turned upside down in a blink of an eye.......
It seems it can change so quickly
But getting back up..and starting over seems to take forever. Rebuilding who you were-only takes time. I think maybe we can appreciate it more that way. The time it takes to rebuild your life-should hinder you from wanting to destroy it again. Because honestly who wants to go back to trying to save the world and being pulled down with it? We're not superheros. We can't be..no matter how hard we try. We can make an impact..but we can't step into the scene..and excpect to come out clean. We're only human
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We have all been drug down by people. i think we were all drug down by each other. I wish that I could have realized things at that time and given you a hand to pull back up with. But just think of how storng you are now.. You are SO strong! And i am so proud of you for changing directions in life. some of those people may slowly come to realize what you have, but then of course others will not.. and there is no one to help save them except for themselves. You are so amazing for getting back on your feet and restarting your life in the right footsteps. That takes a lot of will power for doing what you know is right.
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